just another story ....

2011-05-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

sometimes i think june is a bad month for me.

it never was good.

in bad times comes a surprise.

2010-09-20T00:08:00.005+08:00

when things go bad.. stay calm and compose .. because eventually everything's gonna turn out fine.

well well well ... taiwan trip in 2 weeks time!! i'm not even prepared for it! woo hoo!! its shop till you drop again...

well .. i really hope to bring a partner there .. and i hope it's you.

missing you like mad X 1000000000000000 .

PYF !!!! PYF !!!!

.yy

2010-08-22T23:18:00.003+08:00

yesterday i did something i've never did before in my life. i still cant believe i actually did that . i dunno how can i actually face you now .

what is in your mind ?

why do i get this kind of feeling that i need to see you everyday.

i'm addicted... to you.

the feeling

2010-08-12T18:08:00.003+08:00

in the past .. i would never imagine myself with a prc. but now, i ask myself ... if one suddenly comes in and gives you that feeling that i've for some time forgotten how that feeling felt again.. would i consider to give it a go..

many factors, like .. PRC , $$ , heart, time, commitment, job, family.

i used to depise prc... but now .. i wonder..

local and export .. both are human .. but why do i depise them ? maybe its the irritating accent that they have ?

do i still depise them ? you've given me a different perception.

sometimes, i think i prefer to stay in my safe zone .. so when its time to part .. there wouldnt be much damage done. how long can i go on...

i wanna love wholeheartly but i dont want to feel the pain anymore.

help.

2010-08-11T15:54:00.001+08:00

i blog is in a mess. ugly photo , no music , lousy wallpaper...

there's someone i remember that used to help me update my photos , music , and deco my blogg... but DAMN !! WHO ARE YOU!!!

Why cant i remember!!!!!!

ARGH!

confession

2010-08-11T15:46:00.002+08:00

i wanna know all the answers!!

i wanna crack the case!!

on second thought , if its true .. then maybe you're not gonna make a fantastic gf anyway .. sometimes you talk about you a very decent person .. dont sleep over .. or whatever..

well, somethings if were to spill out.. its not so nice anymore . so. :) good luck to whoever . actually , yes.. i do feel a lil upset .. maybe its because the amount of time that we wasted on each other. So now, i can start to understand myself a lil .. stop always lying to myself this and that, because i know , it doesnt really bother me anymore .

But before i let my hand go, i just hope for some truth in you.

2010-08-07T17:39:00.003+08:00

today is saturday ... and i'm dying of boredom . my ciggies are running low ... my alcohol tank is dried and fried to the max, and the worst thing is ... i cant go out . WTF!!!!!

cant believe i can blog 3 -4 days in a row .. cannot remember ..

anway, i cant take it anymore .. i'll sneak out tonight.

8pm.
ken : i go downstairs buy things ah!!!
dad : cannot lah . your leg like that how to go down....
ken : i can lahhh.
dad : you want to buy cigeratte is it!!!
ken : ya la ya lah!!!
dad : i HELP U BUY LAH!
ken : .....
ken : nvm lahh.. i try go down myself ..
dad : okok .. you be careful ah..

WTH ! Dad offer to help me buy my ciggies!!! LOL

MAX

2010-08-07T01:25:00.001+08:00

jailed.

one leg broken = cannot go out . = bored to death!

i dont care already, i'll rest till tuesday and i'm out to here!!!!

last day

2010-08-05T10:24:00.003+08:00

gonna be discharge later in the day .. around 1pm i think?

physio say i gonna go through hell when i walk the 4 storeys of stairs later.. die lah . stress. 4 days nv shit ... 2 days nv bathe . wanna faster go home mann.

today v flying off to nz already . hmmm, she also evil . nv come see me. haha . but i understand lah . she got tell me beforehand le . anyway vv, enjoy your short trip there k. throw all your unhappy memories there and then faster come back already k. actually i'm still surprised that you meeting the ' plush friend ' there. lol.

I WANNA SHIT . FASTER DISCHARGE ME! . Hospital Toliet sucks btw.

thoughts

2010-08-04T21:12:00.003+08:00

800 years since i blog .. i hope this has become a forgotten blog so no one would bother to read it .

its my last night in hospital .. life with cruthes sucks. no drinks anymore for the month.
well, these 3 days in hospital , have been thinking a lot .. bout friends, bout love , bout one nights , bout relationships...

well , you said you would come to accompany me during my stay in the hospital .. but last min .. you say you helping your friend with some kind of job . well, is it really so important.. maybe if there's really love .. you would have chose to be by my side ... all i need is someone there to accompany me when im at my lowest point . but you were nv there.. instead .. its always someone else. i really dont know why my heart beats towards you , always thinking of you , always prioritying you even u dont know .

maybe all these should stop , i really should come back to my senses already .. if you're really the one .. you wouldnt have stop contacting me for so long . so, your last chance is sunday. if you still fail to keep up to your promises.. maybe youu wouldnt hear from me anymore.

is there anyhow out there knows how i feel ? why do i even wanna go through all these.

erwfr

2009-12-20T20:27:00.003+08:00

hmmmm, christmas is around the corner again ... as usual .. lonely christmas every year .

boozes are running through my veins already ... gonna cut down mannn. but i know i won't . lol

ken-chan`-
snap shot of my memories...
we kissed , you said ' i love u ' , good night. =)

2009-12-13T14:53:00.002+08:00

got BUTTERED on a saturday night . CAR ACCIDENT on a friday night .

What a weekend!

if it's really meant to be together .. let time tell me.

ken-chan`-
cause i believe.

Wake up call

2009-11-30T02:48:00.003+08:00

its time to wake up and start running.

1st start in 6 mths .. and i feel damn good .

i don't need no love .

all i need is the DJ.

ken-chan`-

2009-10-18T18:38:00.002+08:00

like what i've said , it's never gonna be the same again . sometimes , the reasons you tell me is so unbelievable. i din't say anything not because i don't care. its because there's no point quarreling. i dont wish to bring up all these matters. so if you're seeing this , then don't bother to come and ask me. i will give you an unbelieveable excuse to you too.

anyway, if you're clever enough. [ how can it be me ? i would not do such things. even the style and fonts are different from mine. ]

there's a limit. dont expect me to be so open .

ken-chan`-

unhappy

2009-10-14T11:16:00.005+08:00

i realise this is becoming an unhappy blog .. i only blog when i'm unhappy. damn.

for a sudden , i've lost all concentration on everything . luckily , i have a good boss that is always
there for me . thanks a lot mann. although it
doesn't help much.

maybe love is just a game . i hate this game.

2009-05-17T23:33:00.018+08:00

SUPER OVERDUE PICS ! =)

From Plush to DF to BQ ... Happily drinking days!

miss you.

boolala

2009-05-11T11:15:00.004+08:00

vivi says my blog got spider webs already . lol. well, its still the same old ken. working hard on weekdays and playing hard on weekends. =)

maybe what my friends told me really make sense .. " ken, you deserve better " hmmm, it makes me think really hard. yettt i still couldn't forget. arghs. this soft-hearted attitude will kill me one day.

come to think of it , the last time i receive a birthday card is from evilsinyou like 3 years back! haha . this time evilsinyou says she will make another one for me on my coming birthday ! haha. recently , have to admit .. i've been slacking in my work attitude. hmmm, gotta buck up now. or else no money next mth!

blogging in the office now .. so cant upload any recent photos yet. photos will be up in the next entry. =)

i wanna go taiwan!!! SOON!

missing you ..

2009-03-25T08:02:00.016+08:00

cant sleep !! woke up at 7+ .. damn! normally i would wanna sleep till 9+ and rush to work .. today .. i just woke up at 7 and cant get back to sleep. lots of expired photos are up!

$$$!!!

2009-03-22T22:31:00.007+08:00

finally found time to blog .. been working almost everyday .. time spent at home is really so little.. sat is drinking madness .. lots of surprises that night ..

fun fun fun!

$$$

2009-02-22T01:41:00.002+08:00

finally found some time to blog . well, no photos this time .. cause no life = no outings = no photos . everyday work work work . tiring to the max! well, this is life. recently, learned to set some priorites in life . dont wanna drift away to the wrong direction again .

argh ! i soooo feel like drinking now!! but all my drinking friends not free today!! so stay home on a saturday night. damn sadd mann.

recently , have been thinking about you ., its scary to feel the heart broken feeling again . wanna love again .. but i'm afraid.

missing you deeps;

2009-02-05T22:12:00.005+08:00

life at zeal automobile is not as easy as expected. though the drinking fun still remains .. 10am - 7pm work work work , after 7pm is drinking sessions as usual. life is very fulfiling now .. keeps me busy every single moment , no time to think of other stuffs. haha . though working with simon is tiring and tough , i'm glad and thankful for everything he's given me . without him, there isn't a ken now . =)

everything is working out now . and maybe its time to not brood over some things there isn't going to come true.

ken is happy!

2009-01-31T21:00:00.005+08:00

well, cny sucks this year .. cause i lost a lot of money .. haha . but its okay, i'll earn it back. =)
last drinking session before i start work, well .. its gonna be a new life in a new environment . i'm excited!! vincent flying off to brunei , when he's back ..... its gonna be drinking like madness again !! enjoy my time with them ... especially , miss imperfect .. who is always there for me .. thanks miss imperfect! =) ... haha . hope you'll stop emoing soon ahhh!!!

last but not least , her . hhmmmm, suddenly ran out of words.. haha.. but hope she'll feel it . =)

wait for me;

2009-01-25T21:58:00.012+08:00

its vivi's birthday. haha . well, its sad that she's not drunk that day . cause she made too many allies , including me. lol. hope she enjoy her birthday. ( to vivi : dun think so much k. =) you have me and simon whenever you need us. haha. ) 4 bottles of martell that night . after that vincent and yan ren came down . force me to drink beer . in the end, drunk. haha.

2nd feb, starts a new life. working! . well , was wondering . every good things starts on the 2nd of the month . haha .

hmmm, its wonderful to see her again. its like a dream come true. thinking back, i've been too selfish in the past , keep wanting to be beside me . now i just want her to be happy , to pursue whatever she wants. =) even we seldom see each other , i want to you to know . there's always a place for you in my heart. love!

i miss you.

wait for me;

reunion dinner with simon and zeal.

2009-01-22T12:09:00.002+08:00

the winning team!
binghan and gary.
zeal automobile. ~

reunion dinner at kitchener road with the ' company ' . future working colleagues. very friendly people.

hope zeal automobile will prosper in 2009 and the many years to come!

after that carribean with everyone , simon organise a pool tournament .

in the end , my group won! ( ken, binghan , simon ) haha . prize is $50/- woo hooo!!

enjoyable night . =)

i miss you.

wait for me;

photos at fly

2009-01-19T20:10:00.005+08:00

met up with vincent and yan ren for booze at plush bar.

saw the graxs ladies over there. another surprise. haha .

an enjoyable night.

wait for me;

2009-01-17T06:30:00.004+08:00

this is to you. (020408)

now.. 0630am... after massive beer and martell.

after so much alcohol then i've gather the power to type this.

saw you today at df. was really happy. all these time, i dint msg or contact you, doesn't mean i've forgotten about your existance. every night , its hard to go through . maybe its because i'm too used to the days you've been with me. you said i've loose weight . haha . everything comes with a reason. maybe thinking of you only, makes me full. =)

it takes a minute to end a relationship, yet it takes a lifetime to forget a relationship.

i miss you.

wait for me;

asdasdasd

2009-01-14T04:11:00.006+08:00

drink , drank , drunk .

another sleepless night . gazing at the skies, i saw your face. but it seems so far.

the future lies in me . suddenly a few job opportunities came by knocking .

a friend said i need a holiday. anyway, SIA is having a promotion. 700 bucks , 2 way flight to japan!

anyway, my friends are selling chocolates for cny, valentine. go take a look peeps.

saccharine-chocolate.blogspot.com

at the mid hour at night, when stars are weeping
i fly to revisit past scenes of delight ,
and tell our love is remembered, in the sky.

wait for me;

chosd

2009-01-11T19:16:00.007+08:00

went to pasta bar with zhi wei , jw , vincent and noel lsat weekend. brought lots of memories back for zhi wei and vincent . haha . cause they used to go there with their loved ones. food is yummy and desert is yummy!

chinese new year is around the corner.. gotta see all my relatives again. argh. but still okay lah. got angbaos again. haha.

its amazing that when you want to stop thinking about something , the more you wanna stop thinking, the more you cant. hmmm, really wonder how a human brain functions. till then.

i miss you.

wait for me;

2009-01-07T13:52:00.003+08:00

nightmares every night ! argh. dunno why also. cant sleep well. wake up early. sleep night . insomnia!!!

save me!!

你在我心里，永远那么美。

wait for me;

new year eve

2009-01-01T19:45:00.011+08:00

val look like someone ~ memento.
heneiken!
LOL
serene and me!
dead fabian!
jw and me!
vincent and me!

drunks face~
TEO ACT!
serene!
the bedoks + jason

86's

one down!
tampines!

TEO ACT AGAIN!

phine is blur~~

retards!

retard face! LOL

goodbye '08 , hello '09.

well, lots of wonderful memories in '08, but everyone just got to move on right~ =)

so lets hope '09 will be a better year than '08.

here's my resoultions for '09!

stay healthy! cut down on booze~ LOL
get a stable job and earn LOTS of money!!
hmmm, i wonder if i wanted a gf in '09 , lets leave it to fate~ =)

the only thing i cant bear to part in '08 is you.

saying a lil prayer;

wait for me;

christmas eve

2008-12-25T19:28:00.009+08:00

presents for the night!

looks like teo hates his present. haha. bought by jason.

thats the gift i bought! zhi wei is happy!

lame present i've got. but i'm still happy. haha.

the damage done for the night.

yeah , same ol' thing every year . gift exchanges and lots of booze . haha. well, this year dint go so well for me . but i'm still happy . =) merry chirstmas!

hope you will too. =)

wait for me~

asd

2008-12-17T11:25:00.004+08:00

its been some time since i've heard from her . really dint expect that name would suddenly pop up in my msn. though its just a small chat.

you've brighten my day. =)

wait for me;

zxz

2008-12-12T15:39:00.002+08:00

went to butter factory on wed~~ actually wanted to go zouk.. but full house!!! arghs! can you believe it!! we reach zouk at 9pm to queue for the citibank entrance.. and its still full house !! omg ! dint know zouk is so popular now!! haha. so in the end we went to butter factory~~ cause jason say there got free flow from 10 - 1am. haha. as usual, drunks again. too bad there aren't any photos for this entry .. cause jw dint come along with us .. so no camera. lol. okays . till then!

weekends

2008-12-07T16:03:00.010+08:00

hmmm, this entry will sums up the weekend. many things happen.. happy and sad moments. most of my days are drinking drinking and drinking again.. too much things on my mind .. so gotta let off a lil .

finally got my driving license ! haha. now i need is a car. lol. but think thats impossible for now. cause mummy will kill me if i ask for one. lol. though i've got my driving license .. i should feel overjoyed , but dunno why ... i don't feel happy at all. maybe its because too many depressing things happen recently . argghs.

saturday, went to fort canning park . its the ben and jerry festival!! so went down for some phototaking sessions with jw and zhi wei. haha. quite an enjoyable day .. so many pple there. so many babes. LOL.

well, guess this sums up my week. those sad moments, dun think i'll be blogging it. haiz. i think i sucks .. thats why.

ps: 3 things i regretted not doing.

1. dint bring you on a batam trip.

2. dint went up the sg flyer with you.

3. dint give you a good life, ended up you working so hard for money.. if only i could turn time.

2008-12-06T22:46:00.003+08:00

hmmm , nice song .. meaningful .. all my thoughts slowly flow into this song ..

asdasd

2008-11-27T21:07:00.001+08:00

sometimes in life, you find a special friend. someone who changes your life just by being part of it. someone who makes you believe that life is good in this world. someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. this is forever friendship.

i miss you!

2008-11-26T18:55:00.003+08:00

a random entry.

i miss her. haiz ... i wonder if she ever misses me .

wanted to give a call just to hear her voice . but dunno why .. i don't have the guts to do it .

i wanna see you ! i wanna feel love again!

arghs. venting my feelings again . its been raining the whole day .. maybe it represents my mood.

Sentosa!

2008-11-25T23:33:00.011+08:00

Vivocity's Christmas Tree! hu hu!!

this is at siloso beach ! i dint know there's a place like this there..

the sunset !

dinner!

stupid fish!

can you spot the crabs!?

look ! its a cuttlefish!

octopus! damn big and scary!

sea horse!

the snake is heavy!

twist!

thats vivi!

hu hu~~~

ken and vivi!

go kart! funnn!!

SENTOSA ! HERE I COME! .. this time its not just the beach .... but the whole sentosa. haha. had fun today though its only me and vivi . love the go kart! wanna play it again! argh!

head back to vivo after that .. then went to east coast to play billiard. first time in 3 years since i played billiard. haha. i suck in it!

lastly ... mummy told me she bought new aircon !!!!!! finally ! from sat onwards i can sleep in COLD COLD AIR CON ROOM!! HUHU~~~~~

thoughts: i wonder what does that nick mean ~~ haiz .. hope its not what i think.

ps: JUN AN FAIL HIS FINAL THEORY!

till then! =)

BEDS

2008-11-22T15:00:00.003+08:00

yesterday was drinking session again .. with jw, jun an and roy . surprising ... no tan teck ann this time! lol. and more surprising .. we open martell ! lol . think too long never drink martell already .. reach home drunk ! went over to beds at muhd sultan . the waitress there all very pretty ahh .lol . jun an seems to be fond of one of the waitress there . lol. happen to found out a lil bit of their pay scheme there .. cause was like intending to search for new waitress here to the new graxs. lol . btw .. graxs is reopening ! so i'm gonna have a job soon again .. hopefully in dec it will open le. ahaha . no pictures yesterday cause jw dint bring his camera out ! argh! okays . till then !

ferlynn's birthday!

2008-11-16T20:17:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FERLYNN! its her 1st birthday of her life ! it was a fun night with booze , cakes , foods and mahjong! haha . stayed at the chalet till morning . it was a fun gathering . hope there'll be many more to come! smiles! =)

SG FLYER!

2008-11-04T13:18:00.008+08:00

blur blur ...

superman in the sky!

candid!

acting funny!

the birdie pose! lol.

a trip to the singapore flyer sums up a wonderful day with the good buddies! phototaking sessions up ahead! WOO OHH!

and lastly,

LOVE, you are HOT AND SEXY!! =)

jw's house madness!

2008-11-03T15:21:00.003+08:00

tipsy!

we played dai dee using andrew's standard! LOL

Mr TAY! thinking he is the god of gamblers.

all gone in 3 hours!

met up with 86ers today. finally we went singing ! something which i've been wanting to do. haha. after singing , we went over to jiawei's house and the madness begins! everyone drank till wasted that night. jiawei and vincent turn on some nice techno songs and blast them in the middle of the night! lol. everyone sing to the tune, memories of club 3 suddenly went to our brains. haha.

enjoyable night!

cherie's birthday!

2008-11-02T04:19:00.011+08:00

yenny !

sparkles maddnes! lol.

yenny and cherie

cherie and ken!

jw and ken!

jiawei the devil!

retarded photo! lol.

ah wei and jia wei!

yenny chose this drink , cause it's pink!

wooo! yummy bbq food!

jiawei will be our cook for the day! =)

31st oct is roy and serene 3rd year anniversary ! may them have many many more years to come! =) So, 86ers organise their own bbq session for the first time i think. haha. luckily , its a successful one. yummilious!

the following day , a few of us went over to cherie's birthday celebration at downtown east chalet. happen to see simon annie and zx . we sat together and drank our night away . haha. So, 86ers

siew's birthday surprise!

2008-10-23T10:44:00.002+08:00

happy birthday han jun an! well , it may not be the birthday you want it to be .. but i'm sure you still enjoy your birthday celebration!

stay healthy , earns lots of money and may all your wishes come true!

punches and kicks!

2008-10-21T03:55:00.002+08:00

suddenly felt like blogging.. but dunno what to say here.. damn , finally i went down to ubi to book for my car lessons. and guess what! i cant book for my tp! they say my membership has expire and i need to renew them. so, i have to re learn everything! damn! i need the instructor's recommendation in order to book for tp again. argh . so, i straight away book 5 lessons. luckily.. i dont need to wait for so long.. the earliest is this coming thursday! yeah! i want my license badly!! i need a job!! btw.. mummy dont wanna sponser me the money anymore.. so in the end. all my remaining money goes to my car lessons. i'm damn broke!

at night met up with siew siew and ah seng for drinking sessions. drunk again. argh. this time no blood. lucky! haha.

have been drinking everyday!! until my body spoil already. no choice .. its the only medicine to stop thinking about you. i miss you so much. hope you're doing fine. =)

judgement day

2008-10-19T02:54:00.003+08:00

blood all over the toilet bowl, getting out of breath time after time. its like you could feel your heart pumping so hard that every part of your body becomes cold and numb. its like the death god is standing right in front of you, yet you cant see it. at that moment, the first thing that came into my mind is 'her'. how i wish she is just beside me right then caring and comforting, at least i'll feel more relax. but things always dont go the way you want. i miss her so much.

i sense my health is really failing on me. but it doesn't matter anymore. after this incident, a lot of things went through my mind. this is the darker side of the world. cold, selfish , cruel. you cant depend on anyone. only you can help yourself. at least after this, its makes me a stronger person, gives me a stronger mind and most importantly, a stronger heart.

argths

2008-10-17T16:25:00.002+08:00

i had a strange dream . this girl i knew her .. but not so close lah. cant tell her name ah .. must confidential a bit haha.. or else rumors will spread. i dreamt that i've fallen in love with her. in this dream , we're a very loving couple.. cant remember much . all i could remember is that all the things we did together are so sweet . its like a match made in heaven . lol. its like so long ago since i had a sweet dream haha. but back to reality. we're just hi bye friends. lol. and being together with her has never even cross my mind. maybe i know its impossible. haha. anyway. i haven had a wink for almost 20 hours already! so.. tata! =)

i dunno, and really don't know

2008-10-13T16:43:00.002+08:00

finally those legendary graxs days are over , and i'm officially jobless. worst is i need to recce for a new place to drink. no more cheap boozes or any ent special prices boozes. haha . the last 2 days at graxs is definitely be a unforgetable trip. a lot of things happen. but, as what people say, forgive but never forget.

recently have been thinking, do i really know you at all ? maybe i don't . i'll never know you.

cause whenever i needed you, you're never there. i'll never forget those painful memories. argh! fuck! going to EMO already. lol. argh. i need a proper life.

dead man walking.

2008-10-06T09:54:00.002+08:00

recently felt my health is failing , feeling sick every other day . feeling damn sucks. think i should really cut down on booze this time. got lots of other things in my mind, but argh .. cant vent it here.

had a talk with fabian that day, and i found out that we share the same problem . glad that at least someone knows how i feel . its hard to go through this shit, but people just dont understand what we guys are going through. so the only solution is drink drink and drink! maybe this is the reason why fabian starts drinking nowadays. haha. till then!

oh ya! btw , graxs last day is on this coming saturday 11/10/08 . all those regulars peeps, come down support ahh! last day already!!! after that we'll be moving ... but still dunno where. haha . i dont wanna be jobless! cya !

fishy!

2008-09-27T08:54:00.003+08:00

soupy!
seafood platter!
ny fish and chips!
ken and yenny.

went out with miss bay, her treat today ! we had fish and co. my favourite restaurant. haha. after that we went for movies . watched mirror.. damn scary show.. but if those who love horror movies should go and catch it! =)

east coast park terror .

2008-09-23T11:06:00.003+08:00

went down to east coast park last week. heard from graxs customers that its quite fun there so here i go. haha. went down with my bulb , joe and graxs peoples.. bulb was so generous that he open 3 bottles in 2 hours . i think he wants face lah. haha. the entertainer that is damn funny. acting like a pervert all the time. it was an enjoyable night. =) cause you were there too.

went down again the next day for vincent's birthday, first time i caught him vomitting in the toilet!

interesting . . .

2008-09-21T14:12:00.000+08:00

saw this interesting entry on my friend's blog so i decided to post here. haha. sounds kinda like stealing entry ahh. hahah. check this out!

This puppy was born in Japan with a large, clear, heart-shapedpattern in his coat.

The chihuahua was born in May as one of a litter to a breeder. Inpictures: Heart-kun, the love-heart puppy

Shop owner Emiko Sakurada said it was the first time a puppy with the marks had been born out of a thousand she had bred.

bonjour!

2008-09-21T14:02:00.000+08:00

feeling so shagg nowadays . been working a lot this week. hmmm, lots of things happen this 2 weeks . ah wei , flown to india for 40 days already. hmmm, life without him is kinda boring . went to the airport to send him off that night . he kept saying, this might be the last photo we take together. he's so afraid the plane will crash! hahaha. well, wei if you're seeing this, everyone misses you in sg! come home safely!

and lastly about her, weekends without you sure is boring! i already can feel how life is without you! argh i miss you! faster come back from genting!!! hmmm, decided to get her a lil something on my next pay day. so i gotta work work work work again!! hope she'll like it. =)

a fairytale lie.

2008-09-13T14:08:00.000+08:00

there was once i asked her, him or me. she said me ... lol. recently i've found out they were all lies. i should have known.

even she is making use of me. damn.

i'd rather the ugly truth than a fairytale lie.

petrified

2008-09-09T09:37:00.000+08:00

i did a bad thing today. i've got to know some things i wouldn't want to know. seems like both of us are playing the waiting game. actually i should have know long ago, but cant i just couldn't face the truth. bought a ds lite for her today. when i pass it to her, i realise the ds lite is faulty! wtf! haven't even one day spoil already!

went out with ah wei, roy and jia wei today. ah wei and jiawei told me about the curse of the ds lite. haha. once , they had long relationships . they bought ds lite for their gfs. after some time, something bad happen , now .. both of them are single. omg .

the ds lite curse has already started.

bored

2008-09-07T04:39:00.001+08:00

finally found some time to blog! hmmm, same rountine everyday . eat , work , sleep . drunk is like a daily rountine everyday already. argh, hate that feeling. many things happens these days. but none are important to me. met up with friends for mahjong session last thursday. had a good time with them . talk about the past, how i wish i am still a kid. lol! recently, i've learned something new. love can change a person. well , love change me . sad memories but .... things will be better in the future. i hope so! till then!

to you bitch!

2008-08-29T05:00:00.000+08:00

hope you're reading this now. if you're unhappy with anything , you can come straight to me. no need to tell other people to tell me this or that . stop trying to make my life miserable, cause karma will fall on you. farking bitch, dunno why things will turn out like this. but, she is everything to me and yet in one night , everything change. at first , i thought you weren't this kind of person, but i was wrong.

emo

2008-08-25T02:05:00.000+08:00

just a few hours ago, i just saw her. now i'm already missing her. dunno when is the next time i could see her again. felt like calling you. just wanted to hear your voice, but i'm afraid i'm being treated like someone. so again, i chose to keep to myself . feel like letting all out here, but its no longer a private blog. damn! i'm going crazy.... crazy over you. i miss you.

i'll always be there whenever you need me. would you be there?

a day with the koreans!

2008-08-18T02:34:00.000+08:00

twist!
yummy!
merlion park!
smile!
na- young!

bored!

2008-08-13T00:15:00.000+08:00

graxs power
teochew porridge!
yenny and ken
koreans in action.

hmm, life's been pretty boring lately. as usual , work den home. practically doing the same thing every day. hmm. need to save some money already. wanna get a nintendo ds lite! recently get to meet 2 koreans at graxs. exchange contacts with them, and took them on a 1 day singapore tour. lol. last night went with her for supper at geylang. supposely we wanted to had fish porridge but when we reach there its closed! so in the end we had teochew porridge . damn full, after that went back to sleep!

broken

2008-08-08T11:58:00.000+08:00

drink drank drunk again last night. if i were have to look at both of you at one corner everytime i work, i rather choose to work different days as you. pain in the heart. no one understands.

love

2008-08-07T06:06:00.000+08:00

have i ever had a place in your heart ? just found out from your blog that you still love him. no matter what i do, i still cant replace him. what am i to you ? does everyone always take people for granted ? i just wanna love ... yet its so hard. i'm losing myself . drink drank drunk again . till then.

happy birthday pinky!!

2008-08-03T16:39:00.000+08:00

happy 24th birthday pinky!

86ers!

teo acting stupid!

me and pinky!

jason, charlie and jun an

went out with my secondary school buddies today. today is pinky's birthday! went to sketches to had our dinner. first time i ordered a steak outside! haha. usually i would eat at home cause daddy likes to cook steak. haha . hmmm. been's a long time since we've known each other. 9 years! can you believe it! can all of us are still in contact. though some of us are in ns, some working, studying. the bond is still there. too strong to be broken. really treasure this group of friends. here are some photos to sum up this weekend! till then. 86ers rocks! =)

2nd August 2008

its the 2nd of the month again, if only we were still together , this day marks a special day. i still love you no matter what happens. loves! =)

photos!

2008-07-30T06:19:00.000+08:00

hmm, some people say my blog got no photos! so here are some photos!

down and out

2008-07-26T08:22:00.000+08:00

everyone makes mistakes, this time its me . didnt know this could cause so much unrest to so many people. most importantly is i cause you to get hurt. i lied. but i really didnt mean any harm..... i'm really sorry. i didnt know the importance of this matter. what's done cant be undone. i dont dare to ask for your forgiveness. i know this time, its my fault. you cried in front of me, it really hurts. i'm so lost . what should i do. you trusted me so much, yet i've broken your trust in one night. i didnt mean to hurt you. your last words was " go get another girl who you can lie to" . broke down immediately. i dont want any girl . i want you. i need you. i'm really sorry.

i love you so much!

guilt

2008-07-23T04:37:00.000+08:00

she got menuses cramp .. must be painful on her . i feel very guilty, leaving her all alone and i'm outside with my friends. she says i'm not worried for her .. but actually i'm damn worried!! i'm worried you din take the medicine, worried you cant take the pain, worried you'll feel lonely. so, i made a promise to myself, next time i swear i wont ever leave her alone!! because i love, because it's u.

gotta work again tomorrow, got drunk last monday thanks to the regulars at graxs. lots of hennesy and vodka. damn. hate the vomit feeling arghs! alright, i'm sleepy! till then!

oh! lastly, i heart you. =)

memories

2008-07-21T01:44:00.000+08:00

happen to found out that he was at nana too last night . hmm, been thinking a lot of things lately, why is my life always like this? its happening to me again. miss those days

happy days!

first entry!

2008-07-21T01:39:00.000+08:00

okay finally, i'm too bored at home, so created a blog for fun! haha. been staying at home these days. got to know this mobtv thing. so went to subscribe it . so cheap ! only 16 bucks a month and there are lots of show there! just finish watching the beach.ball.babes show which is now showing on channel 8 every weekdays at 9pm . quite a nice show. nowadays, someone has been calling me "fei fei"!! omg, cant stand it!! but ..... because it's you, so i dun mind. haha . seriously i need to lose weight!! been eating a lot these days. every night suppper!!! need to start running soon! arghs, i hate running lah!! okay lah. its 945am already! and i'm not in bed yet!! gotta catch some sleep. till then !! ooh! and lastly i miss you!!